Ok, so alot has happened since I last posted on here. I’ll start with 2 months ago. Well I joined a program the end of October called PHP (Partial Hospitalization Program) basically it’s a day program from 9:30 – 2:30pm. I went everyday – Mon-Fri. I also met with a psychiatrist twice a week and a therapist. We had group therapy twice and plenty of smoke breaks 
. I was discharged last Friday. So now I am seeing my regular therapist and my regular psychiatrist.
Last Thursday, On December 16th at around 6:30pm I was raped by a guy that I knew. It put me in a deep depression for the first few days and FINALLY is starting to get alil easier. I told some good friends and some of them are having a hard time believing me, which is hard for me. Which makes me question… why would I lie about rape? Anyways, I’m not lying. I am afraid because he knows my car..and the area I live in. I gave a statement to my detective and now the police are in the process of finding him and getting him to talk. Once they do that then will they call me. I hope they find him. In my statement I also listed the time when I was molested at the age of 6 and how nothing was done about it. And 2 yrs ago of me being intoxicated and raped and nothing was done as well. I really hope someone listens this time around.
I have learned so much from this horrible experience and I take responsibility for my actions and me being in the wrong place at the wrong time. I hope that from this I will become even more stronger and make my voice louder. I cannot continue to live like this. I am NOT a victim.
